Have to start work. Huh not stress but nervous, excited and thinking lots of possibilities. Hows your career? headache! Worry about which step you taking would slow you down to be promoted. Worry about how long I hv work so hard to reach that position I am dreaming about. I know that position is for people that is SMART where they knows when to make what decisions and play psychology row with the staff.  Some people take 10years some people takes 15 years n SMART ppl just uses 5years. These is SMART employee become a leader. I wish I can take 7-10years. Then 5 years to be =] Sometimes when you know you MIGHT not make it but you need a target to motivate yourself. Your parents n brothers? Your sole mate? Your Children? these is the things make you fight for it. I can do it!!! I surely can!!

;P

I am going to finish my degree ...Last exam 12June
                            Last assignment due date 31July

Last time having a trip with degree really close friends... T.T22th June

During Feb&March we discuss about going a state for 1-2days trip then We discuss about Hong Kong trip as i can get 1 month free accommodation

but both not happening because when u have 5-10 people there will be half agree n half disagree.

This really upset me because I regret did not go for a last trip with diploma's friends, That is apart of our memory in EACH STAGE. each stage of your life help u by making u grow up and make u experience new stuff. **It is okey so i planned to go Hong Kong and China by my own ;P or with my mom~~ If Air Asia available in London i will choose it anyway too bad..**

During May, someone suggested Genting Trip.
From disappointing goes to a little hope.
After a conversation with one of them, We decided to plan both Genting and Island Trip. Whoever can join then join, do not need to care if they dont wan to enjoy our last chance to be together.

I get free rooms so that for weak financial friends could afford to go too. So now I am really on a holiday mood and do not feel like studying for my finals.... I know it is really bad but whenever i think of having a great time with friends in a trip would be the best!!! I dream i could jump to that trip immediately!! Agroup of people squeeze in a room in Genting and everyone can enjoy their own room or choose to waste some room tickets leave the room blank n sleep together ...

I remember we used to go genting with my best friends 6-7 of them all squeeze in 1 room 2 single bed... sometimes a few sleep on the floor but most of the time we sleep on these bed... sometimes we DONT SLEEP at all... either walk around down there or drinks chitchat awake whole day!!! or sleep few hours then continue our CRAZY activities aaha...

If you feel like doing it? DO IT
 If u feel like working on it? Work it out
When u feel regret? stop regreting,,,, try to make it happen now so wont regret more!!!

WHat u want in Life?

Wish?
Dream?
Reality-I can make my wish come true!
          -I can make my dream come true!
          -I can do it Yeah!
 Let's have a schedule! For myself. How about you? Let's do it together.

My mother hopes i could buy her a Sport Car!

My father hopes... i... I HAVE NO IDEA ;P i rarely discuss these stuff  with him tho;P

My brother... finish his secondary school only talk la ;P

This year is my 21st birthday so my first wish is ...
break my V haha what a joke...okey seriously below is what i wish to do as fast as possible!

1)Sky Diving! This would be my Life success for being Brave!
 Just like what he says whats the worst thing could happen? Just DIE la... At least u TRY! Yeah babeh You're the MAn!!!

2)Buy Snake Board! I want to play that when i saw a ... maybe 15years old boy readying books while moving like S shape on the road in Switzerland near my hostel in IMI. There goes my first inspiration dude~~

3)Get a Permanent Job and treat Families & friends with the first month salary OR
   give parents and grandparents 50%-75% of my first salary ;P I think this is very meaningful! It had been 21years old feeding me. This is to tell them Thx for caring me until so big! I can be more Independent now, not a heavy burden for you all.

4)Pass Undang test and Driving test! GOD BLESS ME! People have License 16-18 already and I...Fuck!!

5)....busy... going out makan with old friend nownow haha XD

this whole week sleep at 5am. Last Saturday went for badminton but that day i slept for less than 5hours. Then Sunday morning 10:20am i woke up but i sleep at 6:30am which is 4hours but i was sneezing like hell because of the nose sensitive"signes-if not mistaken" ;P. Follow by so call "Sunday midnight or Monday morning" i slept from 00.20am to 1:30am then sneezing and suffering from cold by making a plate of "wantan" until 5am i try to sleep in another room but my nose is stuck and i have no idea where should i turn to stop this blocking. Use my mouth to breath makes me could not fall a sleep. i about 6:30am only fall a sleep and father tried to wake me up from 7:30am but i 8:20am only wake up because too tired!!! I just have 2 to 3 hours of sleep. THAT IS TOTALLY TERRIBLE AND HORRIBLE!!!

today went for classes and the aircon just cold like shit!!! i knew i could not stand college's air con so i bring 1 jacket and 1 formal jacket it makes me wearing 3 pieces together but im still freezing cold... FARK!!!! 2 Classes over suppose to finish within 4 hours but it actually took 6hours...

I say yes when my friend says go watch movie. Regret but nevermind...i cried too many times inside the cinema for this movie.... zi ming and chun jiao.... .... i went to see doctor to claim medicine because i really scareeed to night cant fall a sleep again then im dead as my asg deadline is 30april and fark that im the leader FUCK U MS ONG im sorry but i really want to say that.... u said want to let ppl never been a leader before to be a leader.... and after awhilei realize i been leader in her class before n wtf she say u wan your marks or not... come on what u actually want women?? zzzzz fark it la.... just fark it.... i just wan to xxx FARK tart shit,,,, i just broke down... from my brain to my heart.... now my eyes and my tears.... im weak....and im weakening... 1 week not enough sleep nevermind but i cant chg my time back... nvm... farking flu is decreasing my energy and increasing my emotional level... i have more patient now and u know what??? i am crying like a girl just broke up with boyfriend hahaha WTF??? why so weak zzzz im leader but i asked my member to vote whether let lecturer check our work or not first and some say no but now only say yes... pls stop playinig with me... i have enough... actually last few days i cant fall a sleep i think is because of this marketing asg n farking dissertation asg... im broke... just broke... breaking down internal n externally ahaa fuck it just fuck it...

大家来学日语）

1. 你好 （哭你一起挖）
2. 我回来啦 （他大姨妈）
3. 哥哥 （哦尼桑）
4. 可爱 （卡哇咿）
5. 怎么 （哪尼）
6. 你好帅 （卡酷咿）
7. 原来如此 （哪里糊涂）
8. 我吃了 （一打卡玛斯）
9. 早上好 （我还要狗炸一玛斯）
10. 怎么可能 （玛撒卡）
11. 好厉害 （自由咿）
12. 谢谢 （啊丽牙多）
13. 怎么啦 （都西大）
14. 偷一下懒 （傻不你呦）
15. 这可不行 （所里挖那里蚂蚁）
16. 为什么 （男的诶）
17. 那是什么 （男的所里挖）
18. 什么意思 （满家所里挖）
19. 笨蛋 （八噶）
20. 我明白啦 （挖卡打蛙）
21. 这是 （库里挖）
22. 加油 （刚巴黎）
23. 搞定啦 （亚当）
24. 朋友 （偷猫打鸡）
25. 不行 （打妹）
26. 说的也是 （受打内）
27. 太好啦 （有疙瘩）
28. 真的 （轰！逗你）
29. 小姐 （我揪下嘛）
30. 不要啊 （呀灭蝶！）
31. 可恶 （扣手）
32. 对不起 （狗咪那啥咿）
33. 没关系 （一挖呦）
34. 不要紧吧 （带胶布）
35. 约会 （带兜）
36. 是的 （嗨）
37. 晚安 （哦压死你） 
38. 到此为止 （哭了妈的）。

Press with thump for 5 seconds & release for 3 seconds, in d affected point. Repeat for 2-3 minuts,for 5 to 10 days. u wil get releif

就这一个星期令我超级hua疑自己的能力。。。

我阿姨说我是个眼很浅的女生。。。

以前她骂我一下子我就会哭。。。原来她的女儿以前也是这样，她哥哥看戏的时候也是这样。。。

不过当我在戏院里我哭但我的朋友都不哭的。。。

作为一个喜欢面对客人和喜欢跑来跑去的我。。。怎么能一下子又哭呢？？这样改天怎样做高的职位，怎样管我的属下。。。

说到我的前途。。。我根家的迷茫。。。我现在其实有Event Management, Hotel - Management/Operation , Airline-Ticketing/Air Stewardess 可以选。。。不过我很担心。。。一选错就会浪费我的几年青春，代表我在事业的跑道上迟别人一步。。。我以前在Shangri-La KL training 的时候超开心，被客人投诉我也无所谓也没哭。。。会不会现在比较眼浅??还是面对父母跟客人会不一样？？？谁可以救救我！！！请哪位高人来告诉我到底我是怎样的人。。。我因该选那里一个职位改天可以很顺利。。。很烦恼！！！不想在想了！！！

我了解

event 10-15years when im 30years old 1 month can earn 10k

air stewardess-1 month can earn 10-20k but very fast will feel boring de...

ticketing- too boring although face lots of customers but sit there cant walk in airline...

hotel management-too boring now i still want to always walk while walking...

hotel operation-

travel working??i have line to work in Perth Australia... i know ned to pay 2550 intotal for travel visa plus airline plus 75aus per week to stay n 20aus perday to eat or maybe per meal... stay for 3-6months is not a bad job tho....but study until degree must like that meh?? but just becoz study until degree so must sacrifice what i want to do meh??why must i do just following the society??

hotel operation- got abit like event management...

FML

Yeah my brother is sick but he is 15, is it my job once spot he is sick and tell my parents OH NO!!! BROTHER IS SICK BROTHER IS SICK??? WTF??? although im 21 this year so what he is 15!!! when i have fever i will tell my mom means i want to see a doctor or want some fever pill. If im having flu and cough i will check whether there are pills or liquid medicine...

Yeah so what i saw my brother sleeping there n touch his head feel like his body temperature is abit abnormal compare to mine...he always go play badminton or basketball but the main point he is wearing school sport shirt... when i just finish exercise i sleep at sofa im also very heat"ty". HOW THE FARK I KNOW HE REALLY HAVING FEVER WTF!!!!!!!!!

huh whatever la wan to watch my ON CALL 36 HOURS ahhaha so nice la that cantonese hong kong movie PREFECt!!! keep cry every few episode

New thinking "ME"

求神保佑！！！希望我能出国工作!!I wish this trip could let me learn to mix with people with different culture in their own country n experience how people life overseas and stay alone or in relative's house for 6months. I want to see my own ability whether i can survive be independence...虽然爸爸很反对但我理他才怪!! I am still considering about having training or be a permanent staff for 6/18months in USA or HongKong...my German is really bad so i dont think i can survive in Germany ;P

USA-Surely improve my english n see my ability to mix with people who speaks expert english may need to bare with the consequences if i cant mix well n i will be very lonely there ;P

HongKong-I have accommodation,i have a few auntie there and some friend working in e.g DIsneyland Hotel and can communicate well with people there and have a lifestyle i am more used to it and get to mix around easily.

Furthermore,... i have a really happy news for myself ;P I had food poison so cause me vomit diarrhea n DEHYDRATION now i from 59kg back to 57kg and im tryiing to keep myself at 57kg at least for now!!! I'll eat WHEN i feel hungry... im doing some exercise daily or twice a day... i just hope soon i will be 55kg... by not having any pills or diet drink to make u look slimmy thats better ;P i have 2relatives n 2 friends taking HerbalLife, few thousands each month... but when u stop intake you will have nightmare because if u are 80kg my cousin went to 98kg because he stops... dont take herballife if you dont really effort to drink all this expensive stuff...bare with the consequences

做人要够豪气！！！。。。 电视教的。。。

做人要有骨气！！！。。。电视教的。。。

做人要有霸气！！！。。。电视教的。。。

ouch....都是 All Well End's Well 2010 教的 XD 不过我一定自持1然后到2。。。没有钱也可以有小小的豪气大大的骨气。。。有钱就可以大大的豪气跟大大的骨气~~~

;P i cut my hair... did not inform any friends until they sees that hahaha and they realize that after a few minutes or second...thats funny tho... becoz when they realize...i forgot i cut my hair XD... some of them say it look really nice some say not bad n some said really ugly ;P but it is cut so it does not matter anymore... i have not cut my hair for 4years from form 5 until last semester of degree. so im going to cut another hairstyle every 4months then another 4months then another 4months ;P the last hair style will be a male one so i will consider which one looks better if long hair really looks better then okey i will sacrifice myself to keep that annoying long hair ;P long hair is really irritating... maybe like ppl always says you will look more female ;P but after X years i will cut back short hair ahhaa,,,

u see when a girl is more girly, after they cut their hair... owww they cry,,, n thats stupid if u love your long hair so just fucking dont cut it....

I love cutting it short.. easy to maintain... i hate using hair dryer or leave it wet or scrabbing it for hours n make my neck pain just so ANNOYINg!!!! wish im a guy so short hair ahhaha XD

Some how i am not like girl love to shop, love to dress, im not like my mother love to travel... maybe is becoz she bring me to half of the world when i was only 17years old... n thats irritation everywhere i go just bring me walk for shopping ewww,,, my leg hurts OKEY!! this maybe affected where i was brought up during baby n kindergarden then secondary n primary in auntie house without anybody bring me go shopping SO i will not blame myself for being so not girly i will only blame u all ;P what an adult become is from their childhood....i live in a village n be like a boy playing around with boy... if im bring up in auntie house when i was small i still will be like this u did not give me a more europe style or a family with a mother that always bring children go out shopping n sees things... my 7years primary n secondary was only go school n watch tv n do home work n do houise work.. ;P thats what u decided n made me became like this so stop complaining what am i now n blame yourself ;P

but i really like to gossip but when im tired i just need some rest...